Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Practically Imperfect in Every Way or My Flaws Through the Use of GIFs

Last week I had one of those moments where I realized that I really need to get my sh*t together.  Ever since college, maybe even farther back to getting married, I've been changing into a different person. I think it's a good quality to be flexible and face adversity head on, however I'm seeing some changes that I don't like in myself.  Some of these things just happen because everything is new and you're in a completely different place, but nevertheless ain't nobody got time for that.

1. Girl you are BITTER.

Life is not fair and you are never promised that it will be.  So people often respond to any amount of bitterness or complaints about this as that you better embrace the suck and move on.  Well, I struggled/am struggling with that.  Being in a career field that I certainly did not choose and one that really does not fit any aspect of my personality has been a bitter berry to swallow.  I do know that being bitter is a lousy way to live and can be exhausting.  I'm a huge advocate for optimism and looking on the bright side, but recently the bitter bug has bitten me.  So I have constantly been using the motto, "don't get bitter, get better."  I'll let you know if that works.

2. Would you like some wine with that cheese?

I have learned to wallow in self pity and it's gross.  I don't know if it's this place or the redundancy of everyday life but boy howdy I can complain.  I bought the gratitude journal and I still haven't used it and the whole point of purchasing it was to counteract this. It's so bad that when I flew into town from the wedding I was at, I actually felt really sad to be here. This has got to change. I never let a place bring me down.

3. "Meatified"

I know I'm not the only lady with this problem but I definitely let beauty fly out the window since I became an officer.  I know a ridiculous amount about beauty products and make-up.  I spent a lot of time in my high school days watching youtube make-up gurus and it's one of my favorite things to do.  However, ever since my schedule has become crazy busy and I'm always working, shaving legs and putting on make-up has just been the least of my priorities.  When I went home my mom also called me "meaty," as in I've filled out...Thanks mom.  I've definitely gained weight since I've been a missileer and I'm definitely no longer 107 lbs.  How I managed that in college, I'll never know.  The best things I've come up with is that I was doing ROTC physical training two-three times a week, walking everywhere since it's a walking campus, and was probably stressed out of my mind.  Whatever the case is my body definitely now has curves and my mom told me not to get fat. #alwaysinspiring

4. Your Mean Girl is Showing

People sure can gossip and like a freshman in high school, I totally get sucked in.  I realized it was a problem when I started thinking negatively of people that I didn't even really know.  Like wtf mate?  That doesn't even make sense to not like someone before you even know them.  So I'm trying to separate myself from that because I wouldn't want to be treated like that and I don't think anyone would. It's a really nasty habit and it only makes everyone look like crap.
So to sum all this up, I need a throwback to the lessons I learned in Kindergarten...

"All I Really Need To Know I Learned In Kindergarten"

by Robert Fulghum
Most of what I really need
To know about how to live
And what to do and how to be
I learned in kindergarten.
Wisdom was not at the top
Of the graduate school mountain,
But there in the sandpile at Sunday school.

These are the things I learned:

Share everything.
Play fair.
Don't hit people.
Put things back where you found them.
Clean up your own mess.
Don't take things that aren't yours.
Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody.
Wash your hands before you eat.
Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.
Live a balanced life -
Learn some and think some
And draw and paint and sing and dance
And play and work everyday some.
Take a nap every afternoon.
When you go out into the world,
Watch out for traffic,
Hold hands and stick together.
Be aware of wonder.

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  1. Despite that, I think you are beautiful inside and out. I used to stress in AFROTC about how I wasn't good enough or how I had these character flaws, etc, etc. One day I had a feedback session with my cadre and he asked what I thought my biggest flaw was. He told me that that flaw (being too emotional) is actually a positive for some people. And if I can manage it, it shows that I am a human and my "troops" will admire that. So I learned never ever change who you are deep down. Best lesson of rotc. I've applied that at work, with friendships, relationships, etc. So just remember that pretty lady :)

  2. I totally know what you mean. I have a tendency to try and mold myself in to what I think the people around me want, totally forgetting about what I truly want. So I recently took back control and I do not care what others think. I am going to be, plain and simple. I hope you have a good day! {hugs}

  3. I totally get it. I can sometimes get so caught up in life that I forget to stop and look at the way I'm acting and reacting. Sometimes it's hard though and that inner biatch just wants to come out and you have no control. It's good to recognize those qualities though because then you can work on fixing them for the better.

  4. I totally feel you. I have noticed myself change as well. But when I notice it, I try to control it. That comes with age and experience if you're not naturally one of those happy/easy going type of people (which I am NOT). You're doing great, girl, keep it up!


  5. I think our career field does this to a lot of people. New deputies are always optimistic and excited about life. 20+ alert deputies are starting to really see just how much of a high school this is. Shop people wish they were back on crew because in the shop, you get almost NO time off...while those on crew wish they were in the shop so they didn't have to pull as many alerts. And commanders, for the most part, have a bitter taste in their mouths because they've seen so much BS that they're just sour on their jobs, even when positive things happen.

    My solution? More hang-out time with my battle buddy, complete with chocolate and wine. :-)